Lord I give You my heart

last sun message was very timely, at a time when we are about to begin another year

the speaker spoke from Haggai 1, timely reminder when we lose focus and start building our own houses while His house remains a ruin

lord where do we go from here?

thank you for meeting me in your own special way



This is my desire, to honour You
Lord with all my heart I worship You
all I have within me
I give You praise
all that I adore is in You

Lord I give You my heart
I give You my soul
I live for You alone
Every breath that I take
Every moment I'm awake
Lord have Your way in me

How Great is our God

The splendor of a King
Clothed in majesty
Let all the earth rejoice
All the earth rejoice

He wraps himself in Light
And darkness tries to hide
And trembles at His voice
Trembles at His voice

How great is our God
Sing with me
How great is our God
And all will see
How great, how great is our God

Age to age He stands
And time is in His hands
Beginning and the end
Beginning and the end

The Godhead Three in One
Father Spirit Son
The Lion and the Lamb
The Lion and the Lamb

Name above all names
Worthy of all praise
My heart will sing
How great is our God

====================

thats my daddy God,
my big brother,
my buddy,
Jesus
and my tutor & helper
Holy Spirit

楓 - 周杰倫 / 彩虹天堂 - 劉耕宏

these 2 MVs, though from different persons, are a continuation.
How come?
well, J and Will are buddies (Will's wedding last year, J was his best man)
never under estimate the power of friendship

according to Will's testimony, at the peak of his carrer, he felt emptiness.
took a break and joined J on his concert tour as a guest performer
(i caught the spore leg of the concert(:)
during the tour, Will met a couple who witnessed to him
Will became a Christian and is currently at New Life Church, a Taiwan church with links to City Harvest Church.
According to grapevine, J is now a Christian and also attends New Life Church.
So, if you cant meet J on earth, you can till meet him in heaven (:

i received a belated Christmas gift last night
one of my buddy G, who contributed to me being a Christian, has been attending NCC recently
the irony is that i have been attending NCC this mth as well
but the church is so big and i attend services in the morning, that sleepy head attends afternoon service
a smoker n alchoholic, for him to talk about stop smoking and drinking is so unreal
G has been sliding even before i knew him, we went pubbing together before Christ(:
after all that he has been through the past year, the prodigal son is back
though i have neglected my bubby, my Big Brother was around for him
what a way to end 2008 (:

龙卷风

my first J song from his self titled first album
i love the slow / fast tempo of this song so much that i immediately ask who is he and bought his first album, and the next few, even attended his first concert in spore lol

安静

last song from his career launching 2nd album, Fantasy, which shot him to superstar status.



















behind any great man is a greater woman, his mum
i personally believe God's favor is on this man,
to a certain degree its because of her
so to the mothers out there,
remember to pray for your children
how i wish mine could

簡單愛

my all time fav from J
his first 2 albums are the best
before he became too pupular

thats when i found love
though it didnt last
will i find love again?

王力宏 - Kiss Goodbye

time really flies
2008 is coming to an end
the year has been memorable
i stepped out of youth
towards my break
homecoming
went back to BSF, to Matthew
spent most of the year waiting in darkness
bishan cell in meleka
from Good Friday to Easter Sunday
from death, to tomb, to resurrection
inservio was greatly blessed
unequally yoked
completed my last church camp
it is finished
first time holiday with bright ones
HCM is special because of u guys
rest starts
Z is no longer the little boy i know
Z is almost my height now
got my HLE
$280k valuation
found AMK422
betrayal
carry me Father
come on drew
retreat in Chiangmai
from servant to son
be a man
defend my dewlling place
found long lost A in TCC
G starts to go NCC
packing to move
TP157 > AMK422
goodbye 2008

daddy god, prepare 2009 ahead of me, amen

溫柔

last sun, watching 五月天 perform in SuperBand finals, brought back fond memories

7th September 2001 你要去哪裡？巡迴演唱會 Singapore Expo. This concert marked 五月天's temporary hiatus of two years.

I attended the concert with xiaodi when i have not even heard of 五月天 lol

well it was a concert of a lifetime.... 五月天 was not that famous yet, but had a cult following... a band that writes its own songs were rare back then...

superb live band, made a fan out of me after one concert... 五月天 is made for live concerts....

the concert hall was not very big, round stage at the centre, we have very good seats, few rows from the front... once concert starts, the crowd went wild... went forward and bounced that night away... though i really have not heard any of their songs, mandarin or hokkien.... big Beatles fan, they threw in a few Beatles song... at least something familiar for me :)

its oso the closest i have even been to the stage in any concert... can even feel the sweat lol

this is my alltime fav from 五月天....



溫柔

走在風中　今天陽光　突然好溫柔
天的溫柔　地的溫柔　像你抱著我
然后發現　你的改變　孤單的今后
如果冷　該怎么渡過
天邊風光　身邊的我　都不在你眼中
你的眼中　藏著什么　我從來都不懂
沒有關系　你的世界　就讓你擁有
不打擾　是我的溫柔
不知道　不明瞭　不想要　為什么　我的心
明明是想靠近　卻孤單到黎明
不知道　不明瞭　不想要　為什么　我的心
那愛情的綺麗　總是在孤單里
再把我的最好的愛給你
不知不覺　不情不愿　又到巷子口
我沒有哭　也沒有笑　因為這是夢
沒有預兆　沒有理由　你真的有說過
如果有　就讓你自由

不知道　不明瞭　不想要　為什么　我的心
明明是想靠近　卻孤單到黎明
不知道　不明瞭　不想要　為什么　我的心
那愛情的綺麗　總是在孤單里
再把我的最好的愛給你
不知不覺　不情不愿　又到巷子口
我沒有哭　也沒有笑　因為這是夢
沒有預兆　沒有理由　你真的有說過
如果有　就讓你自由
自由　這是我的溫柔

why? this is one of their less cheem song (O level C6 after 4 attempts)

one that i can actually read off the screen and sing without checking dictionary

well at least 80% of the song lol

abba mania

blast the speakers!



ok i'm not that old, when abba was hot i'm not even a teen, so its technically not my "era"

but this is an all time fav on the dance floor, during my cheong days, miss those dancing days, maybe i should dance again?!?

anyway just need a break from very stressful flat selling, so while i wait for my Lord to provide the buyer, i shall butt out

Be Still and Know that I AM GOD

Hosanna

I was humming this song this morning on my way to work, in fact, the past few weeks, this song have really ministered to me.

Last week has been quite bad. Trying to rent a new office. Stress out with selling my flat. Even more stress out with buying my "dwelling place"

Over the weekend, the Lord reminded me to build up my faith in Him. In fact, while i was typing this, the Lord reminded me...

Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. John 14:1

We sing Hosanna, but what does it mean? Found this to be interesting.

The Meaning of Hosanna
source: sproutingseeds.wordpress.com

Here is a little misunderstood word.

Hosanna - it means “liberate us!”. Or “Set us free”, “save us”.

Shocking? Lots of people think that it just a praise word, but it is actually more than that. So picture Jesus making his entry into Jerusalem on the back of the donkey and the Jews were shouting”Hosanna!”.

The Jews were acknowledging Jesus as the promised Messiah, whom they thought would free them from the Romans. They were asking Him to liberate them from the Romans (which they thought the promised Messiah was going to do). Imagine their shock when Jesus went instead to clean out their religion.

We of course know that Christ has done much more than the Jews thought He would. He has liberated us from sin and death. He has set us free from legalistic religion. So next time we sing”Hosanna!”, remember the meaning and remember what Christ has done for us.


Hosanna


I see the king of glory
Coming on the clouds with fire
The whole earth shakes
The whole earth shakes
Yeeeah

I see his love and mercy
Washing over all our sin
The people sing
The people sing

[Chorus]
Hosanna Hosanna
Hosanna in the highest [x2]

I see a generation
Rising up to take their place
With selfless faith
With selfless faith

I see a near revival
Stirring as we pray and seek
We're on our knees
We're on our knees

[Chorus]

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me
Break my heart from what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdoms cause
As I go from nothing to
Eternity

[Chorus x2]

Hosanna in the highest

一切完美

i confess. I have been watching this 13-part series religiously.

why?

its privately produced (Wa Wa Pictures),
got good natural acting (Thomas Ong & Michelle Chia),
realistic storyline and character developement,
with something to think about after watching.

Unlike the usual fare from MediaCorp,
over-acting,
ridiculous storyline,
wonder why waste time watching shows only aunties can identify with.

each episode has a sub plot with the main plot linking the episodes together

one of the main plots is the successful plastic surgeon of the rich and famous Dr Alex Tan, who is a bachelor, discovering he has a 9 year old daughter, Coco, out of the blue, unable to accept her existance initailly, to loving her, enjoying fatherhood, adjusting life priorities and eventually losing her when her mother, his ex, came back for her.

throughout the series, a few scenes that touched me most were the father - daughter scenes. developing perternal instincts? lol.... neh

the most memorable one was when Coco approach Alex with her piggy bank.
Coco asked how much it would cost for Alex to help her friend restore her face damaged by abuse.
Alex told her it would cost her 100 piggy banks.
Coco was disappointed.
Coco asked Alex to lend her money.
Alex wont lend Coco money, cause Coco's money is Alex's money anyway.
Touched by Coco's compassion for her friend, Alex offer to do the surgery free of charge, a first for the materialistic Alex.
Alex commented, hugging Coco, what to do, my daughter asked.

Success to Significance
creating phyical perfection to restoring the soul

The perfectionist in me was able to identify with the journey.

the series ended with this quote
"As long as you learn to tolerate imperfection, everything will be perfect"

Dead Leader Running

last night for cell we watch a video from Leadership Summit 2006 Dead Leader Running by Wayne Cordeiro

"attended" CHC 3.30pm service online just a while ago, Derek Dunn spoke on "Running the race to win" and brought out the exact same 5 principles Wayne Cordeiro spoke about last night.

I was like, no way, in the less than 24hrs i heard the same message twice, how freaky is that. But i know God is speaking to me using His loud hailer :)

===========================================

the 5 principles for sustainable living

1. Know what fills and drains your tank.

Who am I with? Where am I going? Why am I doing this?

what are the things that makes me feel most alive & full!
when we get to busy & the drain increases...we tend to drop things that fill us.
when my schedule increases...i must increase my fill

Lord help me identify what fills me and what drains me. Remind me Holy Spirit to up my fills when my drain increase.

2. Understand balance in life.

my family is my ministry. If my family isn't healthy, then im done.
out of balanced feeling..when a storm comes in my family, i have to move my fulcrum, heart towards it....then i can still be in balance.
as i move my heart to what the Holy Spirit is putting pressure on...i stay balanced.

Lord help me to be sensitive to the Spirit prompting to work on areas of my life that needs my attention.

3. Lead out of rest.

Schedule in my rest points first before my schedule fills up. God intended activity to come out of rest. Rest needs to come first.
our day begins in the evening

Genesis 1:5 God called the light "day," and the darkness he called "night." And there was evening, and there was morning—the first day.

In my retreat last year when i read the above verse, i never understood why God wrote evening first then morning, now i know why....

sleep in on the front side (we get our best sleep between 11pm -3am)

Lord help me to watch less TV and sleep early

4. Find a lightning rod.

These are a few select people in our lives that we can be completely open and honest with and trust that they won't share the details with others. That protects us from releasing inappropriate thoughts to people who shouldn't be in the loop with those thoughts.

Thank you Lord for my shepherds, few in my inner circle and faith sharing.

5. Be disciplined in your daily devotions.

www.lifejournal.cc

S - Scripture
O - Observation
A - Application
P - Prayer

we won't have the wisdom necessary to finish...we did to start but we have to add it
along the way

how do you do your sharing? is it scripture to the people or scripture to you then to the people

Lord help me to be more disciplined with daily devotions. Lord forgive me for the times when i share from the scripture to the people direct. Now i understand why during my retreat last year, i was doing bible study but not hearing what God is saying to me.

===============================================

during the Olympics, the torch bearer should not be concern with running faster than what he did previously... running beats his time but his torch has been snuffed out...the people are there...where is the fire?

his response was i don't know but i beat my time...the goal is not the time but to bring & protect the flame.

the goal is to run in such a way that you protect the flame.

some of us are running with an extinguished wick...we are running fast...but the wick is out...your heart is not there

how do you re-ignite it? you need to draw near to the throne of grace

some of you have been running with an extinguished wick to long.

Lord thank you Lord for the timing reminder. Help me Lord the regain the flame and continue my run after my break

1995 Irony swatch watch, Ocean Storm YGS103

last night before going for cell group, i discovered my usual weekend watch was missing. as my mum have "borrowed" it before, i asked if she "borrowed" it, she said no. i told her its missing.

i next asked if any stranger entered my room during the week, as i was wearing it last Sun. she said she had some visitors but wasnt too sure. feeling responsible, she offered to buy me another one.

you see, this watch is unique. it was bought with my first bonus, and i change the blue leather strap to a metalic elastic one.

well from the missing watch, mum and i had a good talk this morning on what the future holds for me, her and us.

you know what, i am sad that my fav watch is missing, but im not really devastated. its call detachment :)

unlucky in love

i have always been unlucky in love

when i was younger, girls i like dont fancy me, too immature

so much so that i wonder if its more blessed to be loved

as i mature, there are girls who like me but i dont find them suitable beyond just friends

my conclusion, its better to love than to be loved

the most ideal would be to find love in return



friends who have gone to KTV with me would get to hear this song always if they are observant, its my usual warm up song

but i think most dont know why i almost always start with this song

well this song bring me memories of my first love, both good and sad memories

just a sentimental guy i guess

鄧麗欣 方力申 - 十分．愛

fell in love with this duet

there are only 2 types of duets, the really good ones and the rest

this is consider a really good one, though i dont understand canto lol

to the lovers out there, enjoy :)



十分‧愛 (方力申+鄧麗欣合唱版)

曲：金培達
詞：陳少琪

合：分手後一分鐘　便有後悔聲音
　　能傷我最深的人　應得我心
女：應該漠不關心　然而還著緊
男：當攬緊他人 想起跟你熱吻

合：愛過太深 原來身體會疑問
　　再沒法可適應別人
　　願醉掉了　能容許你憐憫

男：早知不應試愛　(女:未放開) 便節哀
女：有情人
合：日日夜夜同分開感慨
男：避開　女：願你改　男：一個　女：小小意外　
男：未悔恨我未會知
合：不散不愛
男：心　女：話放開　男：未放開
女：雨驟來　
合：才能提示真愛是確實存在
　　愛滿分竟是換來　痛亦滿分
　　可否錯一次以後 一直愛

合：分手後天天都　是最重要起身
　　皮膚有你的指紋　刻得太深
女：應該漠不關心　然而還著緊
男：當攬緊他人 想起跟你熱吻

合：愛過太深 原來身體會疑問
　　再沒法可適應別人
　　願醉掉了　能容許你憐憫

男：早知不應試愛　(女:未放開) 便節哀
女：有情人
合：日日夜夜同分開感慨
男：避開　女：願你改　男：一個　女：小小意外　
男：未悔恨我未會知
合：不散不愛
男：心　女：話放開　男：未放開
女：雨驟來　
合：才能提示真愛是確實存在
　　愛滿分竟是換來　痛亦滿分
　　可否錯一次以後

男：早知不應試愛　(女:未放開) 便節哀
女：有情人
合：日日夜夜同分開感慨
男：避開　女：願你改　男：一個　女：小小意外　
男：未悔恨我未會知
合：不散不愛
男：心　女：話放開　男：未放開
女：雨驟來　
合：才能提示真愛是確實存在
　　愛滿分竟是換來　痛亦滿分
　　可否錯一次以後 一直愛

苏打绿-小情歌

Recently discovered this indie group from Taiwan. Thought they are quite good.

Reminds me of when i heard my first Jay Chou's song. Btw, Jay's first few albums are his best, in my opinion. Somehow when he got famous, something was lost.



这是一首简单的小情歌
唱着人们心肠的曲折
我想我很快乐
当有你的温热
脚边的空气转了
唱着我们心头的白鸽
我想我很适合
当一个歌颂者
青春在风中飘着
你知道就算大雨让这座城市颠倒
我会给你怀抱
受不了看见你背影来到
写下我度秒如年难捱的离骚
就算整个世界被寂寞绑票
我也不会奔跑
逃不了最后谁也都苍老
写下我时间和琴声交错的城堡
最后谁也都苍老

http://www.sodagreen.com.tw/

Keep Moving Forward

Flashback

This was done on 31 May 2008, cant remember why i didnt post.

For a change, we watch Meet the Robinsons during cell.

This was just before church camp, during a time where i was quite stress out by church camp and work.

It is very important to not look back at life's disappointments and move forward. Not allow ourselves to get sucked into self pity but to look towards God.

Hope this encourage you too, if you have the tendency to major in the minor and lose sight of the big picture.



Lewis: I don't even know what I'm doing.
Wilbur: Keep moving forward.
Lewis: I mean, this stuff is way too advanced for me.
Wilbur: Keep moving forward.
Lewis: And what if I can't fix this, what are we going to do?
Wilbur: Keep moving forward.
Lewis: Why do you keep saying that? And don't just say keep moving forward!
Wilbur: It's my dad's motto.
Lewis: Why would his motto be keep moving forward?
Wilbur: It's what he does.













"Around here, however, we don’t look backwards for very long. We keep moving forward, opening up new doors and doing new things… and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths.” - Walt Disney

Who am I

Clearing some old drafts that were not posted previously and saw this post which was originally created last Nov.

Didnt gather the right words to go with the vid and left it as it is.

The intereesting thing is that this weekend, the Lord has been trying to remind me that I need to know who I am in Him. Not head knowledge, but truly believe it in my heart that I am indeed His Child.

Lord, give me the faith to know that I am truly your Child, to trust and obey You always, dispite what I see, hear, feel.

1 July 2008

Today is a special day in many ways.

Army Forces Day

the beginning of 40days fast "beyond words"

A dear friend's birthday. He was the one who led me to Christ.

Inservio turn 1 year old today. God has been so faithful to us. Thank you Lord.

==========================================

This day is also special because it marks the also the begining of my 6 mth sabbatical.

This sabbatical came about after 1 year of planning, praying and seeking the Lord, relinguishing ministry slowly, completing all committed tasks, and making a conscious effort not to take on new commitments. I didnt wake up this morning and declare this is the day. lol

When i send our my sms announcing my sabbatical, only 3 replied, representing differnt type of response.

envy? - there is never an ideal time to take a break to have a KitKat

misunderstanding over what a sabbatical means - a person on sabbatical does not desire to leave church, unless he is excommunicated. If he wishes to leave church, he would have just left.

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

Below is from Wikipedia

A sabbatical (from the Late Latin sabbaticus, from the Greek sabbatikos, from Hebrew shabbathon, i.e., Sabbath. ) is a rest from work, a hiatus. The concept of a sabbatical has a source in several places the Bible (Leviticus 25, for example), where there is a commandment to desist from working the fields in the seventh year. In the strict sense therefore, a sabbatical lasts a year. However, in recent times, a sabbatical has come to mean any extended absence in the career of an individual. In the modern sense, one takes a sabbatical typically to merely take a break from work or to fulfill some goal, e.g., writing a book or traveling extensively for research. Some universities and other institutional employers of scientists, physicians, and/or academics offer a paid sabbatical as an employee benefit, called sabbatical leave. Some companies offer an unpaid sabbatical for people wanting to take career breaks - this is a growing trend in the UK, with 20% of companies having a career break policy, and 10% considering introducing one.

Sabbaticals are often taken by professors, pastors, cartoonists (e.g. Gary Larson and Bill Watterson), musicians (e.g. Cindy Wilson, Bobby McFerrin) and sportsmen (e.g. Alain Prost) and fund managers (e.g. Geoffrey Brianton). Academic sabbaticals typically follow every six years of full-time employment. The most common arrangement is for a half year at full pay, or a full year at half pay.

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

the most encouraging response came from a young man who should be the only one qualified to voice displeasure but instead encourage me with prayer support.

=========================================================

Last week, in Fri cell, we need to memorise each other verses. The verse i need to memorise was

Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God... (John 14:1)

This verse really spoke to me so much, living word, rhema word of God, really felt as though God was speaking to me in an audible voice, when i read it. Exectly what i need for my sabbatical.

Little Wonders

This is a very comforting and inspirational song from "Meet the Robinsons".



Little Wonders (Rob Thomas of Matchbox Twenty)

let it go,
let it roll right off your shoulder
don't you know
the hardest part is over
let it in,
let your clarity define you
in the end
we will only just remember how it feels

our lives are made
in these small hours
these little wonders,
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away,
but these small hours,
these small hours still remain

let it slide,
let your troubles fall behind you
let it shine
until you feel it all around you
and i don't mind
if it's me you need to turn to
we?ll get by,
it's the heart that really matters in the end

our lives are made
in these small hours
these little wonders,
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away,
but these small hours,
these small hours still remain

all of my regret
will wash away some how
but i can not forget
the way i feel right now

in these small hours
these little wonders
these twists & turns of fate
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away but these small hours
these small hours, still remain,
still remain
these little wonders
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away
but these small hours
these little wonders still remain


Keep Moving Forward

被遺忘的時光 - 蔡琴

This song is so sad but captivating. (emo mood)

Sorry i dont know what the song is really about, my chinese is real bad.

O level C6 after 4 attempts lol

At the Cross

You tore the veil
You made a way
When You said that "It is done"

Hey There Delilah

this song by Plain White Ts is just so captivating...

Music from the factory - C+C Music Factory

90s flashback just for fun.

Something from my army days :) Enjoy!



Gonna Make You Sweat (Everybody Dance Now)